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I don't want to be a debbie downer today, but the frailty of life has been shown to me a few ways these past few days. As a new mom, I had no idea how hard these things would hit me, but I find myself beyond thankful and also strangely scared for the two little lives that God has entrusted to me. I found out yesterday that a dear friend's husband has been diagnosed with aggressive esophageal cancer. She is still so full of life and creative energy, and my heart is just breaking for her. The thought of losing Dan like that is just too much for me to even fathom. She is all I have been able to think about since I got the news yesterday morning and I just keep trying to figure out a way to support her and show her that she is loved and God will be there for them all the way through this. I now understand that one of the joys and also struggles of being a mother is wanting to shield your children from all of the hurt this world can throw at us. I guess all I can do is love my boys with every ounce of my being and hope that they will be prepared to handle life's struggles with a happy heart.